Boy does it

I have written here for some time of my going through "changes" as I become older. I had over 3 years of wandering in my mind, trying to find "me". Not the me that others know. The Me I never became. I still search for her. Perhaps I always will.

What happened to make me wonder about who I am, under the facade I have created? The fact that I never knew who I was. I thought I did. I was my Parents child. I always tried to be what they thought I should be. This never seemed wrong to me. It just was. I cannot blame anyone but me for who I became, I realize that. I might have been better off had I never began the journey to me.

Why do I say this? Because the delving into who I am has not been easy. Telling the exact truth and opening those deep wounds hurts. But, to heal, one must hurt first.
I will go on with this at another time. It is time for bed now.

May all of you have wonderful Days each and every day of your Lives. Don't neglect to see the tiny joys of this world. Even a Cobweb is outstandingly beautiful. Okay, I have not figured out how a mosquito is beautiful yet, but there must be something about it that is. Perhaps when it freezes in winter and dies? If you know of something good about it, let me know. My point is that we rush by things so fast, we never take time to enjoy each and every small thing that contributes to the joy and beauty of the world.

For petes sake, stop and smell the coffee, the flowers...and see with those eyes the simple pleasures.

My Granddaughter was born with no eyes. She will never see. She may never do much of anything. We are still waiting to find out about that. That is why I am here typing this when I should be asleep. Hug your Children. Appreciate them. Do not harm them by yelling at them. Take out your frustrations in other ways. You may not know the harm until much later on in your Life. I know I have said too much. Goodnight
Katie